Here's something you should go and read immediately:
FORGOTTEN WRITERS: GIL BREWER, by Bill Pronzini:
". . . For all my seemingly sometimes rattlebrained manner, I am actually deathly sincere and serious about my writing. . . Am only happy – my only real happiness – at the machine."
I found this at Bill Crider's blog, another blog I have been reading lately but keep forgetting to tell you about. It has become one of my favourites.